Sep 25, 2009

Please send your positive thoughts to me today

By the time this thread is posted, I will be checking into the hospital for some tests.  I know many of you are people of faith and/or just incredibly positive people and I'm asking you to channel some of that for me today.

I went to the doctor late afternoon on Wednesday, Sept. 23rd & while I was there, I was told that I had a "large mass" under my left armpit, in the breast.  Today was the soonest they could get me in (since all appointments yesterday were filled), so I'm off to get some kind of fancy mammogram.

I'm hoping with everything I've got that this turns out to be nothing and since there is NO history of breast cancer in my family, there's a good chance that's how it will turn out.  But for now, I must admit I'm absolutely terrified.  I've also had a horrible week (personally) with things having nothing to do with this, so it seems when it rains, it pours.  If there was ever a time I wish I was still living in the same town with my family, especially my Mom & my sister, Gail, this is it, instead of being surrounded by all these men here & an absolute sea of testosterone.  (Is is OK to want your Mommy if you're a middle aged woman??)

Add to that the fact that my DH is taking off (without me!!) for Monaco this weekend to meet up with his brother & sis-in-law (who live there) & his youngest sister & her 2 daughters, who will be traveling from the Mid East to meet him there.  There's been a lot of family loss surrounding us over the past month or 2, when my husband's youngest sister's husband dropped dead from a very unexpected, massive heart attack--no warning, nothing, leaving her a widow at age 48.  Then within that same week, his father died--also unexpectedly--he'd been suffering from dementia for a while, but was in good physical health, then he started to not feel well & within a 1/2 hour, he was gone.  So we've has been trying to get a visa for his sis & her 2 daughters (who are very young adults, still living at home) to come & visit here, just to help them clear their heads a bit, but we've had no luck.  But they were granted a visa to visit their other brother in Monaco & DH decided to fly over there to meet up with them, & just booked his flight earlier in the week.  I really thought I was also going, but it hasn't turned out that way & truthfully, I've been quite hurt by it.  But I always say everything happens for a reason & maybe the reason I wasn't allowed to go is because there might be something I need to take care of right here & now--I just don't know.  (See, I told you I was having a bad week!!)

I'm also feeling a little guilty because I have NOT kept current with my mammograms, so if this doesn't turn out well, I'll have no one to blame by myself.

What I'm asking of all you amazing people in my talented & generous community, who have become not just acquaintances, but also friends, to do for me this morning is just to put out all the positive thoughts you can muster for me & if you're so inclined, to say a little prayer as well.

Hopefully the next time I write here, it will be with great news that they found hadn't found anything & all this worrying had been for nothing!! 

Cross your fingers & wish me luck.  You are all the very best people & I couldn't be luckier to be a part of this amazing community!!

11 comments:

  1. Glenda, I will be praying for you. My heart goes out to you for all your loss. You take so much time to bring happiness into my life through your blog, I just want you to know how much I appreciate that and know that you are loved by me. It is a reminder that we all need to go and do out mamograms regulary. I to, have not been regulary. I need to go to, and you have made me see that. It has been three years since I have been. Thank you. I will call first thing Monday and make that appointment. I will pray for you and will be thinking about you and please please be well.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Glenda first no one is to blame and you need not blame yourself at all, life sometimes gets in the way of things we are meant to do and that is nobody's fault. Second I believe in the power of Angels so I am sending Archangel Raphael to you and he is the healer. Know that there will be nothing wrong at all okay. No mights just definites. Stay well my friend and I am constantly sending you positive energy as I am Reiki qualified as well.
    Hugs
    Michelle M

    ReplyDelete
  3. Oh Glenda, my heart goes out to you, and I will be praying for you and keeping you in my thoughts. what a totally tough time you are having. Keep faith though, I hope it all turns out well for you
    Sending love and hugs
    Enfys x

    ReplyDelete
  4. Glenda, you have my prayers coming your way, we have a BIG God and I believe in miracles...[[[[[[[[[[[hugs]]]]]]]]]] Sandy

    ReplyDelete
  5. Glenda, just saw your post. Many positive thoughts and prayers coming your way. Sending you some big hugs too. Yes, it is OK to want your mom no matter what age you are. Moms always gave the best hugs.

    ReplyDelete
  6. I havent been on in a while and so sorry to hear this you will be in my prays for sure (keeping fingers crossed too LOL)
    Hugs
    Norine

    ReplyDelete
  7. Glenda, I am hoping by now you have already got your good news that everything is ok.
    I posted on the board the other day on you first post.
    I will keep you in my prayers.
    Hope to here from you soon that everything turned out just fine.

    ReplyDelete
  8. Glenda, you are in my prayers and I will be thinking about you over the weekend! I am a breast cancer survivor who TRULY BELIEVES IN POSITIVE THINKING - you must keep positive thoughts!! I know these tests may be uncomfortable but you can do it! You certainly have more than your share to bear - but you have lots of support out here!
    Jackie

    ReplyDelete
  9. Glenda, I just saw this post and wanted you to know that I just prayed for you. I'm sorry that all of this is happening in such a short time span, but you are a strong woman and you will pull through. I pray that God will give you peace and comfort and good health.
    Gini

    ReplyDelete
  10. Thinking of you and your family. My heart goes out to you all. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

    ReplyDelete
  11. Glenda, I'm so sorry to hear about all that you have been going through. But I'm very happy to hear that it wasn't cancer and can be treated with antibiotics. You are truly blessed. I will continue to say prayers for your complete recovery. I haven't been around the cricut message board much this year. Just have been in a creative slump. I hope to be back around more since I ordered the Gypsy. Just in case you forgot who I am, I'm the person who came to your house and road to the swarm with you a few years ago.

    ReplyDelete

Please share your thoughts by posting a comment here!!! Your thoughts / suggestions / comments will help this Blog evolve into the community of shared learning I so very much want it to be--for ALL of us!! Thanks. GLENDA

ADD This buttons

LinkWithin

Blog Widget by LinkWithin